Here I Am, Lord

Praise and thanksgiving to the Lord for a wonderful Sunday:

A very ministering Sunday service at PMC with this beautiful hymn, two things impressed upon my heart: -

I was thinking of Serene 姐姐 and her calling when I sang this song.

"Indeed, the Lord has once again affirmed His will that you’re to go to TTC*.”

This prompting came to my heart as I sang the hymn: ‘Here I Am, Lord’.

I think it was the Lord’s ultimatum for you, 姐姐.

Pastor Molly Tay, Brother Solomon, myself, Sister Julia, Brother David, many others Brothers and Sisters in Christ, and even your hubby Brother Wilson encouraged you to go forth!

How many times do you need the affirmation?! Haha... =)

“姐姐, I look forward to see you on the pulpit. It is confirmed that you’ll take that pastoral path.”

I said forth suddenly in a serious tone, as Holy Spirit prompted, to Serene 姐姐 while we’re chatting at the Pasir Ris Park playground and watching little Brian enjoying himself. =)

I was careful with my words, it was not perhaps or I think but IT IS CONFIRMED that you will go to TTC, and so many people just confirmed that, my dear 姐姐! Align your desire to God’s will and surrender to His Divine Authority! =) I know your heart has been convinced le. I am so glad for you, 姐姐.

*TTC: Trinity Theological College, Singapore (http://www.ttc.edu.sg/)

I was also moved by the hymn when I sang “Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart.”

It was made clear the Lord’s plan for me. The Lord has given me great peace in my heart and harmony with Him, after that night of impartation and fellowship during the karaoke session. My plan is that I will go when the Lord calls me to serve but before this, I know I’ve a few major matters to settle: My unforgiveness towards myself for not able to forgive my dad; My unforgiveness towards my dad; My sexual struggles with all wrong things I did in the past that caused to feel unworthy of God’s love; My low self-worth issues

I am excited to meet Pastor Wendy Watson again on my issues in a fortnight’s time. =)

At the same time, I am convicted to dwell in the Word of God to be better equipped so that when the Lord could use me as an instrument to serve His people, I would be ready… I am excited about it!

No matter how long it takes or whether the calling would be realized, it doesn’t matter to me at all, because I know the Lord is more interested in how intimate my relationship is with Him.

And to me, it is only the strong love, fear and reverence for my perfect Heavenly Father, my close walk with Lord Jesus and my intimate fellowship with Holy Spirit, that matters above all things. =)

Praise and thanksgiving to our Lord!

Here I Am, Lord
I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard my people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear my light to them?
Whom shall I send?

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my people’s pain.
I have wept for love of them.
They turn away.

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak my words to them.
Whom shall I send?

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will send the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them.
My hand will save.

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

Finest bread I will provide,
'Til their hearts be satisfied.
I will give my life to them.
Whom shall I send?

Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

Words and Music by Daniel L Schutte
Copyright 1981