Be Still and Trust God!

This morning I woke up feeling very "hung over" because last nite slept quite late around 4am because I came back, wash up, read some blogs and did my own blogging... After blogging, I was so shagged, then I decided to sleep without doing Quiet Time.. oppps... haha.. I deliberated not set alarm but.. I still woke up at 10am.. haiz... wat's wrong with me..

Then this morning I was soooooooooooooooo tired... panda eyes.. wanted to sleep late but biological clock seem to be working too well, too well programmed for a 6-hour sleep.. had some thoughts in my mind so I wrote a journal entry.. didnt blog it cos something is just between me and God.. haha..

Then, I decided to do some housekeeping and did my laundry since the weather is good. Wanted to go for a swim and sun tan but too "shagged" to drag my body to the pool, even though it's only 5 mins walk away.. haha I wished the pool was just outside my hostel room hahhaa then moment I opened the door I could just jump into the pool.. Didnt want to go because I was not feeling emotionally and spiritually "strong".. didnt want to go there and get myself all distracted.. haha.. but I walked to Canteen 4 (even further than the pool) to buy my lunch haha... wat lame excuse right?! humpf!!

Then I watched DVD throughout.. okay, I confessed I'm just plain LAZY! was scanning DVDs until I decided to watch "The Passion of Christ" which I didnt finish watching when I was in Shanghai.. hehehe.. Cos I was struggling with issues and felt distanced from God so I "resisted" watching it though I went service and cell group meetings but didn't know why watching Passion was a no-no...

Today I finished watching Passion.. It was ssssssssssssssooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ministering... cried like mad.. every sin I did -- I thought I kind of added one more stroke of caning or whipping or gave another piercing with the spear onto my Lord Jesus.. I think the tears I cried throughout the movie could fill a bath-tub...

It was then I literally saw Jesus as a Lamb of God, slain for our trangressions (Isaiah 53). haiz!

Thank You God for Your unfailing love, grace and mercy upon mankind. =)

Then I took a nap then went for support group. =) The worship this evening was so ministering. God is so real, I was particularly touched by Sister Sandra's sharing on the conversion of a malaysian man who gave himself over to the gods and idol worship and how Jesus saved him through his wife's confession and forgivness... WOW! Praise God!

Jesus is soo soo soo good! Amen!

Brother Reuben's crying out to God during ministry time was really a very touching sight for me. I didnt know what exactly happened but I fully understood that liberation when we're at the Throne of Grace! I was praying with him as I was acting as his catcher in case he fell backward.. I felt the presence of God flowing through me even when I wasn't "ministered". It was such an awesome feeling!

I am praying particularly for two more brothers - Brother Calvin and Brother Cam. Both brothers are very busy and today I saw Brother Cam, he looked so tired BUT our Lord will strengthen him in Jesus' Name! Amen. Seriously our hearts go out for him. *shake head* Haiz... God, have mercy on brothers!

But I know we, as brothers, could only encourage them through our sms-es, calls and most importantly of all, we keep them in prayer. We can do everything through Christ who strengthens us!

Heavenly Father, be with us, may the Peace of God be released from Your Throne even right now, O Abba Father. Have mercy on us, strengthen Your children. Holy Spirit, Lord, fall fresh upon us, anoint us with fresh oil every day. Spirit of the Living God, we need You, please comfort us, help us! Lord, You are our rock, our fortress, our deliverer, our shield, the horn of our salvation, our stronghold, our Lord and Saviour! =) In Christ's Mighty Name, Amen!

God Almighty alone shall deserve all glory, honour and praise!

Be Still and Trust God!