A ray of hope

Thanks friends for the caring sms-es and messages..

Recently, my temper and mood change.. I'm no longer the smiley boy at work.. I pull a long face.. I try to be happy and positive each time I go to work but the moment I stepped into my office.. phone calls start coming in, people start streaming in, emails start flowing in.. attempting to drown me to death.. :(

I'm so glad that I'm able to get out of my office for two days.. went to NTU and NUS to do some work.. I must say it was a good break. I never enjoyed a good lunch until that day we're out at NTU.. we had a very sumptuous meal and really heart-to-heart talk with two colleagues.. It was perhaps the most memorable and enjoyable lunch for the last 6 months.. :(

Last evening, I cant "tuan" cos I've candidates waiting for me in office to be offered a job.. Now, offering someone a job is no longer a joyous thing to me. It has become so routine and I could go on auto-pilot mode as I made offer. It's not engaging anyone at all. Imagine making offers and pre-employment orientations to 50 candidates over last 2 - 3 weeks.It's really no joke. It's also no fun at all.. I'm not able to engage the candidates at a very personal level.

I feel like a "prostitute" during those days.. if you get what I mean..

I guess the only consolation this week is that a candidate by the name of Joseph told me that one of the greatest takeaway for him is to befriend me. I must admit it warmed my heart and I'm almost crying. I guess it's God's way of comforting me through his people. Candidates have good comments for me and the way I handle their hiring. I'm very glad.. at least some people do appreciate.

What I can't appreciate is the micro-management of senior managers in my company.. all they want is number, number, number... do they really care about the quality of the people they're hiring?!! Don't they know that I need a balanced worklife too?! *angry*

Roomie is right, I really need some time off to recharge myself.

Maybe it's time to move on... I do see a ray of hope in the east..