Today is a superbly interesting day.. with downs and ups and downs and ups...
1. I woke up at 5.30am to do my translation.. some people played mahjong till early morning in the hostel, I was stunned. Was fed up with them but I couldnt complain cos it's not in my block. It leaves other people in that block to make that fateful call lor... then at 8.30am I went for lecture.
2. During lecture, Zhong Cheng told me if I'm writing my blog, I was stunned, how come he reads my blog?! Must be Matt who told him?! Then I checked with Matt.. it wasnt him.. hmmmmm.... Moreover they told me someone is faithfully reading my blog everyday.. and doesnt want to disclose the identity of this person.... Then Matt told me his friend thought I looked GAY?! Oh man.. He must be blind.. I am straight!!
3. From 10.30 to 12.30 I was having BH322 project meeting with Sam, Angel and Dajie.. I felt so terrible (i) I wasnt prepared enough (ii) My brain was seriously having a ULTRA bad blockage till I felt so down and depressed.. (iii) The darn weather was so humid, so warm, making me so lerthagic (iv) I woke up so early... maybe that's also caused me to be so inefficient..
4. Then messaged Serene 姐姐 for prayer request. Then I also prayed to the Lord.. had my lunch then felt much better.. what made things worse was BH225 SPSS outputs were a great disappointment and we need to meet Prof for consultation tomorrow at 3pm.
5. I came back hall and took a nap. Felt so recharged. I happily made my way to Church of Our Saviour for support group. Met Fred and Bain on the way then slipped my tongue, I told Fred i'm going to COOS. He's an Anglican so he knew about COOS... Oh man.. Then he asked "eh... Thursday got what programme, I knew Wednesday was healing.. what about Thursday" I was dumbfounded.. Didnt want to tell him which programme, I acted blur then changed topic. Haiz.. I think he will find out soon also la.. Thursday not many programme so very soon will CHIM POH (cantonese: let the cat out the bag).. haha.. Never mind la.
To God be all glory for my recovery if I've progressed.. =)
6. During support group, everything went fine. The speaker in the video was so boring.. then we had a fruitful discussion. I prayed for Brother Calvin's Hong Kong Trip.. heehee.. We also had a hugging session.. nice nice.. first time hugged Brother Sean Koh.. great feeling.. heehee..
7. Then at 10.20pm we adjourned to hawker centre.. Had some noodle.. Something then happened that caused me to be so rudely shocked and disturbed. I didnt want to confront and deal with the issue at that point of time but Bro Cam just came hard down on this issue.. Yah.. *hurt* But upon reflection, it was by God's divine appointment for me to deal with the issue..
8. As I was thinking when I walked towards MRT station asking myself what if I bumped into that "long-lost" brother then how? Now that I'm so down... if I bumped into him, how would I react? We both seemed very fated to bump into each other because since time off, we bumped into each other at least three times (including this time) on the train at different stations wor (Raffles place, Queenstown and Jurong East) and at least once at Jurong Point i.e. without prior arrangement and knowledge where we would be.. Oh man... I seriously want to know what is God trying to teach me?!
And.. guess what.. as my feeling told me, I hit the nail and really met that "long-lost" brother on the train. I am utterly shocked.. He was shocked and I was even more shocked by my Father's "prank" on us. We acknowledged each other by nodding our heads *so awkward* then I walked away with Brother Calvin. Super awkward but the aftermath of the confrontation at hawker centre, I was so distraught to even be "bothered" by how to relate to that brother in the same cabin..
I am not joking.. it was really very very divine one.. very very zhun (hokkien: accurate) one.. I never never believe by coincidence again...
9. After arriving in hall, I felt soooooooooooo terrible then I went for an hour walk ard NTU.. I cried, I prayed, I sang, I ranted, I complained, I did my quiet time as I was walking, I convenated and I did alot of funny funny gestures - singing to the Lord.. I even torn the letter my "long-lost" brother gave me and then committed our friendship unto the Lord's hands.
10. When I returned to hall, I wrote a long email to Bro. Cam and made clear my stand. I am someone who doesnt enjoy confrontation and avoid making very clear stand on several matters. Whenever I made a firm stand on something, I think the recipient could be 1000% assured that I meant business and I don't compromise on certain things. I am a firm believer in two-way communication on differing issues and openness.. But I thank this brother, if not for tonight's incident, I wouldnt have drawn closer to God. Well then again, nothing is by coincidence, the Lord has already known and planned all these right before the foundations of the earth. Well well, He is afterall still the Author and Finisher of our faith. Whatever it is, I thank you Brother Cam.
With these ups and downs, my heart has only one thing to say to the Lord:
Lord Jesus
You are Lord, You are King.
To You be all glory and praise.
Just submitted my Hi-P 20-page translations *fulfilled* I thank God that He helped me through this tough assignment for this week.. so sian.. so tired.. but I just want to pen down this entry before I retired...
5:03 am GMT+08:00 right now.. I should be in bed NOW!! Oh man... Ciaoz!
Shalom to all!
And I love Jesus!! I pray that you will love Him too!! =)
Danielgoh..
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