My Five Love Languages

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		12
Quality Time:		8
Words of Affirmation:		5
Acts of Service:		3
Receiving Gifts:		2

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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Eternal Summer

Last night, I went to watch Eternal Summer (盛夏光年) with 2 friends.

One thing that struck me most was not the gay scene which I fully understand why certain things happened the way it happened..

It's the last part which triggered me alittle.. I wish I could have a best friend like that -- someone who is close to me and I can be close to and depend upon. Who could that Person be?

Jonathan and Shane have been emotional dependent on each other and at the point of "desperation" to keep the friendship, Shane did a very silly thing which is to use sex to "keep Jonathan to himself". Although Shane is masculine and sporty, he has deep insecurity, he relied totally on his best friend for Jonathan for his well-being and identity. Jonathan said that as best friend, there is no need for both boys to be doing things together all the time.

As for Jonathan, perhaps it seems to be that he has placed Shane as his centre too and that Shane has that masculinity and male bonding that Jonathan desires to have with other men which he then hope to get it through closeness with Shane which blurred his relating with Shane -- thinking that he might have fallen in love for Shane which in actual fact, it's just a very legitimate desire for male bonding and filling of his own love tank which no one else fills for him. Shane and Jonathan filled each other's love tank to the brim and as leaking vessels, both can never be filled enough..

Also, ungodly soul ties were formed and it takes awareness in Christ Jesus that they know that this is unhealthy relating and it really is bondage.. not bonding.. Confessing, repenting to God and releasing this relationship to God is the one way out and God, in His Mercy and Grace, through the finished work of Christ will cut the ungodly soul ties between Shane and Jonathan. God alone will be their best friend and He will also bring other men and women in the Body of Christ to come alongside Jonathan and Shane to befriend them and love them.

If Jonathan and Shane have known Christ and walk in fellowship with God and other brothers and sisters in Christ, perhaps they could have healthy relating to each other. Alas, what is that we have a best friend who is not Christ.

Jesus is our best friend and He promises that He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Staying On...

You are holy, holy
Lord there is none, like you
You are holy, holy
Glory to you, my lord (2x)

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found better light in you lord (2x)

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong

You are holy, holy
Lord there is none, like you
You are holy, holy
Glory to you, my lord

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong
(In the lord, yeah)

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you (love with you)
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong

I sing your praises forever (forever)
Deeper in love with you (love with you)
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong (2x)

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This is the song by Hillsongs that rang in my heart yesterday as I had my little Sabbath before meeting Reuben for Benny Hinn's Crusade at Indoor Stadium.

This is a Praise & Worship Song that ministered deeply to me when I attended Trinity @ Paya Lebar Young Adult Service. This song just came to me.. Being a three years old Christian, I learnt that this is how God ministers to my heart. He will place a song that moves me so deeply that I will sing back to Him and it will often leave me with tears.. no matter where I am.. Be it in Church, home, office, traveling on MRT or anywhere! When the Spirit of God moves, I'm just so deeply moved and tears just freely flow..

This is the prayer that I have.. As the Scripture is written: Be Holy for I Am Holy (1 Peter 1:16).

This week was a roller coaster week.. With 2 new role: secondment to Compensation and Benefits section, and doing a major recruitment projec, I quite stressed up and wanted to perform to please my bosses actually. I knew in my spirit that I am not to be a men pleaser but God pleaser. As Paul wrote in the Book of Galatians, Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ. Truly I am convicted that I should not be a men-pleaser.

But I'm glad I got to meet up with my beloved Brother Cam, and had a good time with him.. I cherish the moments spent with him very dearly.. a brother in Christ I dearly love.

Over the week, I kept making mistake at work.. Causing my boss to be quite upset with me and she "reprimanded" me. I was quite upset and that made me worse. However, things turned for the better nearing the end of the workweek.

I sprained my back yesterday but I still went for Benny Hinn's crusade.. and had a good time with Brother Reuben. =) And today, I went to IKEA with my family for a nice breakfast then Dad sent me to Riverlife and I had a great time with God. The communion time was wonderful and I was deeply moved by God and I knew I am loved by Him. The preacher for today's Old Testament Challenge Elder Freddy expounded very well on the topic: God the Law Giver. I love his preaching and really I pray that the Lord would use me in this dimension to preach in the future.

I'm becoming very well settled down in Riverlife Church. Today God used Senior Pastor Vincent Lun to convict me about settling down in Church -- not to switch church anyhow.. somewhat, I'm convicted that I want to stay put in a place to learn.

Pentecost Methodist Church has helped me grown spiritually over the last one and a half years, feeding me with ample supply of spiritual milk and the several wonderful things God has used PMC to minister to me are 1) Water Baptism, 2) DEW Ministry and 3) the group of brothers and sisters I have in this local congregation.

I sense that the Lord has arranged for me to be in Riverlife for His good purpose. And I am settling down with Riverlife for a while until the Lord moves me elsewhere again. I've signed up with the Church Camp and I am seeking to join a Cell Group where I can feel comfortable and grow.

May the Lord guide me along the way.

Glory be to the Lord God Almighty!

For my Beautiful Saviour, I fight a good fight!

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you

This is a song from Planetshaker which ministers very much to me during this period of "aloneness" at Riverlife Church.

Actually, all these while, I thought I am backsliding until my mentor Chin Nam told me that "aloneness" is not so much of backsliding if we're entering into a period of solitude and seeking God. Yes.. I have peace in me to know that I am not bakcsliding in my Christian Faith.. In fact, as a lone ranger, God spoke alot to me in quietness and some times even sudden outburst of prayer, worshipping the Lord and speaking in tongue to worship God, to praise Jesus and to pray for people whom God has placed burden in my heart.

Yes, I must agree that I enjoy such period of "aloneness" with God. :)

How wonderful, how beautiful.. Jesus has a Name which is above every name in heaven and on earth and below the earth! Hallelujah.

As we're entering the Holy Week, I'm relooking at my life.. Recently, I get to know I might have some serious problems with my liver which I am very worried. To be very honest, I am very fearful of death at this point of my life but today at Riverlife, during worship, we sang a song - To live is Christ, to die is gain. This is a verse which I thought of through this week when I'm pondering over my health condition (which has not been confirmed).

God is so good and gracious. At Riverlife today, God has sent Jill Southern to speak of faith - believing God for the impossible and so happened that today is Healing @ Holy Communion. I believe that I can trust and hang on upon the finished work of our Lord Jesus Christ at the Cross of Calvary. By His stripes, I am healed. Amen.

Especially during this Holy Week, let me not be too bothered with my health condition, it is nothing compared to the many souls not yet saved. God reminded me that many souls of His beloved are not yet saved. May the Lord, full of mercy and grace, shows grace and mercy upon His beloved people, and I believe that it is God's very nature to see that none should perish but all to come to repentence and receive for themselved the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.

In this Holy Week, perhaps not only this week to remember that we're saved by gracious act of the Lord Jesus Christ, not by our works, that none should be able to boast about.

Let us remember with solemnly and meditate on the works God has done for us through our Christian faith. There is really nothing greater than God's great love for me and my family.

Truly, we may be able to say: "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Finally, there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the Righteous Judge will give to me on that Day, not to me only, but also to all who have loved His appearing." =)

Chaotic Thoughts..

I'm back!

Today I went back to work.. cos I was away on course yesterday and I had some work to clear.. guess I'm getting abit too "workaholicized" liaoz~

Last week, I was just blogging about my very "jialat" life at work.. Today I read Dan's blog, apparently he's no better or worse.. At least, I'm paid OT but he's not..

Hmm... I was just confirmed by my boss last Wednesday, she gave me a good increment with a very exciting project and an assistant.. Hmm... Workload has been slightly better cause I just download most of my assignments to him... at least the first 4 days of the week, I got to leave work at 8pm.. hey it's some kind of achievements you know?! =p however.. this month's OT hours has hit another peak of 110 hours... I'm just a few more hours to my OT limit... haha...

I like this new project and additional role assignments given by my boss.. but I'm aiming to achieve ZERO OT hours after 6pm next week!! =) Let's see if it's possible.

I went to Trinity Christian Centre for service today and I was entirely soaked in the presence of God. I just enjoy the time with God.. and I'm looking forward to more tomorrow..

I guess I'll be going to do some exercise next week too.. Getting FAT.. Hee..

A ray of hope

Thanks friends for the caring sms-es and messages..

Recently, my temper and mood change.. I'm no longer the smiley boy at work.. I pull a long face.. I try to be happy and positive each time I go to work but the moment I stepped into my office.. phone calls start coming in, people start streaming in, emails start flowing in.. attempting to drown me to death.. :(

I'm so glad that I'm able to get out of my office for two days.. went to NTU and NUS to do some work.. I must say it was a good break. I never enjoyed a good lunch until that day we're out at NTU.. we had a very sumptuous meal and really heart-to-heart talk with two colleagues.. It was perhaps the most memorable and enjoyable lunch for the last 6 months.. :(

Last evening, I cant "tuan" cos I've candidates waiting for me in office to be offered a job.. Now, offering someone a job is no longer a joyous thing to me. It has become so routine and I could go on auto-pilot mode as I made offer. It's not engaging anyone at all. Imagine making offers and pre-employment orientations to 50 candidates over last 2 - 3 weeks.It's really no joke. It's also no fun at all.. I'm not able to engage the candidates at a very personal level.

I feel like a "prostitute" during those days.. if you get what I mean..

I guess the only consolation this week is that a candidate by the name of Joseph told me that one of the greatest takeaway for him is to befriend me. I must admit it warmed my heart and I'm almost crying. I guess it's God's way of comforting me through his people. Candidates have good comments for me and the way I handle their hiring. I'm very glad.. at least some people do appreciate.

What I can't appreciate is the micro-management of senior managers in my company.. all they want is number, number, number... do they really care about the quality of the people they're hiring?!! Don't they know that I need a balanced worklife too?! *angry*

Roomie is right, I really need some time off to recharge myself.

Maybe it's time to move on... I do see a ray of hope in the east..

Cherish life, cherish every moment of your life

I realised that I've not blogged for a long time..

The last entry was "What a wrecked life I have"

These weeks, I've been so busy with work.. reached office at 6:30am and left office at 12:30midnite.. quite no life.. had so much work (very heavy workload).. :(

I don't know if this is of the Lord to stay in this organisation.. my life is entirely wrecked.. I think my old ailment of not wanting to communicate with people is back.. there's no way for me to destress except to sleep.. so I halted all my personal life.. I don't meet friends, I don't participate in Baptism and Membership class, I decline helping in Alpha, I stopped attending men's group, I stopped attending Masterlife class.. I also stopped going to PMC for service.. I just want to be a wandering soul.. go church visiting..

I reallie don't want people to ask me how I'm doing etc etc.. very vexed... I just want to be a lone ranger fo the time being.. at work, I've phonecalls coming in non-stop, candidates calling for enquiry or change of PEO dates... secretaries calling to ask for interview documents so that they candidates could meet with the VPs/Directors, the VP, directors, managers calling to check hiring status... like as if I'm a superman... I hated my work so badly now because I'm just like a server -- generating reports for people day in day out.. bringing candidates, making offers... even making offers don't excite me and it has become a chore to me..

WHY WHY WHY!?!

Anyway, I learnt to let go and not be "nice" anymore.. no more smiles!! A VP commented that I'm not smiley anymore and ask how he could increase my productivity so that I don't have to work until so late everyday.. seriously, I find it very ironic.. I don't know how to answer his question, I just kept quiet... and shook my head... no comment..

The only thing I want to do is to sleep.. to forget about all my troubles.. alot of people find that I'm very unstable. It's a matter of time I leave the organisation if I've exhausted the last straw to talk with my director when she's back, and to no avail..

After career fair today, I went to watch movie with Min Min.. I laughed my heart out until pengz as we watched "Just follow law".. I've not been so happy for a long long while.. but when I reached home and recollect all the things I've been through the last 3 months since December 2006.. my mood just reverted to my "closet" self again..

By the way, life is short.. my director's dad passed away suddenly over this week.. came as a big blow to my boss.. attended the wake of my JC mate's dad who passed away just before CNY, my aunt's father-in-law also died shortly (without apparent cause of death) after my granny's death.. life is very unpredictable, so fragile.. life is beyond our control.. so what if i'm earning quite a fair bit of $$ right now?

There's no joy and peace in my life.. I want more quality time with my family and loved ones.. No one knows what's there for anyone tomorrow.. My body has been haywired lately.. who knows which day the Lord will bring me home..

Cherish life, cherish every moment of your life..

God bless you!

What a wrecked life..

Haven't blogged for a long time.

Been very busy at work. My latest working hours:

1am; 2am; 5am.. it has been as such for the last 4 weeks and I'm quite burnt out.. Been working for more than 15hours every day from Monday to Friday.. some Saturdays are burnt too..

But thanks to supportive colleagues especially Min Min.. :)

Also, thanks to Serene, Calvin, Cam and Linus for caring in their different ways

I've not been doing well in terms of my recovery.. having several incidents of relapse.. been surfing websites which I shouldn't have surfed.. doing things that I shouldn't be doing.. I'm not walking very right too..

Just finished a BIG BANG advertisement followed by 2 weeks of hectic and aggressive hiring then 1 week of career fair and mass interview for NTU. Next week, I'll be having another period of aggressive hiring.. Guess such hectic recruitment activities will go on for a while...

Lord, I'm really very tired le... should I carry on like this? Perhaps I'm going towards self-destruction.. and during this period, Egypt looks very appealing..

My Friend

My Friend

A friend is someone who knows the song of your heart
and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words

I thank God for several significant friends who know the song of my heart and the song of Father God's heart and often sing the song of Father God's heart back to me whenever I have forgotten the words.

Thanks to my many friends who have given these to me!!

Thanks for the many soft-toys, they are so cute!! They have accompanied me for many lonely nights and I am always reminded of God's love through you guys as I gazed at these cuties.. :")

In 2007, I resolve to be a man after God's own heart and walk right with God, with His Strength and by His Grace.

哥哥, thanks for being My Friend.

I am especially thankful to you for eveything you've done for me. You always care and love me like a big brother, though I've been sooo notti and "不听话".

Your love has touched me so deeply and towards you, I've so much to give thanks for you. 谢谢哥哥！ I LOVE YOU!

Jiayou for your walk with God, k! I know you'll do well as you yield to Him.

荣耀归于昔在、今在、永在的全能主耶稣基督！

Christmas - A Season of Thanksgiving

Rainy rainy day..

Many days went by since I last updated my blog.. Life is sooo "interesting"... Things and people come and go but one thing remains faithful always that is God's love..

Lately, I've not been in very good shape.. literally.. put on weight and hairline starts reclining... haiz~ a sense of wisdom setting in my life..

Bought many books to read, met many friends - new and old..

Been to service after service, coming in and out of church remaining not very impacted until last Christmas service then I received a true revelation of God's love once again.. once again.. I could be moved to tears in Church service. This is how God touches me and moves me..

This is a season of thanksgiving..

As Chin Nam said, I've so many so many to thank God!!

Thank God for my family - life has not been the same since I've professed my Christian faith publicly through baptism.. Dad comes to term with my Christian faith and he has been sending me to Church for services. He also wished me Merry Christmas!! haha.. :) Thanks be to God. I claim the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ upon my Dad, my Mum and my younger Sister that in 2007, they will experience the love of God and receive Jesus as their personal Lord and Saviour. Hallelujah!

Thank God for Singapore - our land is experiencing a very different spiritual atmosphere and this is yet another year Church of Jesus Christ in Singapore is being granted permission to publicly evangelise during Christmas. It's really heartwarming.

Singapore - World's Antioch for Christ!

Thank God for my home Church - Pentecost Methodist Church. Thank God for everyone and everything in PMC. Pastors gradually are opening up to the congregations, youths are growing up maturally in Christ, young leaders are nurtured and discipled to be more like Christ, ministries are building up, men are praying, women are still praying faithfully and the passion for Christ has been burning strongly!!

I look forward to the continual discipleship with Chin Nam, Alpha Ministry and other service to Christ in PMC! Of course, not forgetting the Masterlife class, membership class, men's group, Church Camp, 75th Church Anniversary and other many more exciting journeys and growth in PMC. I sense that God is directing me to go back to basics in 2007. Completing the bible from cover to cover is my heartfelt desire and commitment to God! Help me O Lord.

Thank God for my graduation and many fond memories in Uni.

Thank God for my baptism and through this and other situations, God has shown how He has loved me through His people. I cant finish listing every single person who loves me and cares for me during my very down time this year.

Thank God for my job in TECH though it's very siong and taxing.. But thank God for the provision!!

Thank God for healing through Choices and DEW Ministry. Thank God for Church of Our Saviour. Thank God for my Band of Brothers - Calvin, Cam Yew, Daryl, Ramesh, Richard, Chun Rong, James, Sean, Reuben, Jason and not forgetting a very dear brother Weng.

Brother Weng, no matter how ugly and bad things have turned out to be in the past, I look forward to meeting you again (in God's timing) and enjoy godly brotherhood with you. Agape you.

Thank God for "Daddy" Chin Nam, Wilson korkor, Serene jiejie, Brian, David, Julia, Joyce, Michelle, Lionel, Ralph, Daphne, Seth.

Thank God for the men's group - causing me to learn to be more disciplined to wake up at 5am to be in Church at 6.30am.. haha..

Thank God for Sunny, Dajie, Roommie Eugene, Ade, Daniel Huaqing, Sam, Jamie, Alvin, Zhiqiang and many other friends who are dear to me.

Thank God for my professors and coaches in life who have imparted so much to me.

Thank God for so many people and things in my life in 2006.

See how can we thank God enough!

Last but not least, thank God for Jesus who has been given to us for the redemption of our sins that we may be reconciled back to God the Father and we lead a life of righteousness through Jesus Christ our Lord who has empowered us by His Holy Spirit.

So... in this Christmas season, let us give shout praises to God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit!

HALLELUJAH!

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

A weekend well spent

This weekend is a more relaxed weekend.

I went to volunteer and I did some "labourious" work at an old folk's home.. then I went Party World and have a fun time of KARAOKE with my Band of Brothers - Brother Calvin, Cam Yew, Chun Rong, Richie and Anneh. It was a great time of CRAZINESS and much of our (actually only me) diva-ness came out from the song -- Don't Cha! But as I looked back, there's absolutely no negative feeling when I danced so crazily... After DEW, by the Grace of God, things of the past have no hold of me, definitely not by might nor by power but by His Holy Spirit! :) Dinner and kopi fellowship after that were great too!

I wanted to sleep in a little bit more so I didnt go to the Youth Service.. just attended the 11am service. Today, God placed a little surprise to me. A total stranger - a 18 year old young man came visiting PMC. His name is Hua Sheng, he's from City Harvest. As for whether why he came to me, God knows.. but more importantly, whether he will continue to worship in PMC or not, it's really up to how God leads him.. Chin Nam and I are affirmed that we could do our little to help this young man if he wishes to grow in PMC esp in YMPACT ministry.. =)

Then I had a good time of lunch fellowship with Wilson, Serene, David, Wilson's Mum, Brian, Huifen and Baby Ming Hao. I also enjoyed chit chat time with Margaret.

After that, I had a good and blessed time with my mentor Chin Nam. He led me through a session of renunciation and then inner healing of my granny's sudden demise. Then we spent the next 2 hours plus talking about God, Holy Scriptures, theology, church life, discipleship, leading a holy lifestyle.. but more importantly, about life, about boy-girl relationship and many more.. haha.. It was a 3-hour session well spent!

Anyway, I thank God for this weekend. Now, it's time to look forward to a busy workweek. But more important, I must do it with thanksgiving and passion, knowing that I'm not pleasing men but serving and honouring my Lord Jesus Christ that I might bring glory to God the Father through the empowerment of the Holy Spirit.

To God be the Glory!

Buck up!

This week is really a terrible week... feeling very disconnected at work.. crunching numbers, dialling numbers... looking forward to next week for the training class... expectations upon expectations.. Maybe I'm not really not so good afterall.. ha.. Or maybe my "heart" is just not at work..

I'm very disappointed in my own performance and really lose the zeal and drive for work.. why so? Cos overwork? cos too many accounts to close? Or what? I'm running away from reality and wanting only the easy way out.. it's not going to work this way in life.

Disappointments in life are inevitable.. i'm disappointed in myself for my performance.. But i'm not being fair to God, i'm not being fair to my boss.. It's time to buck up, pick myself up and walk!

My wanting to stay away from people symptoms coming back again.. withdrawal symptoms.. but why so? It's quite ridiculous..Let's face up with things and confront it. Fear not, the Lord is with me...

Put my heart into the planning for next year's recruitment activities!

Buck up!

Some thoughts to share during this Advent

TWO Weeks have passed... Granny has left us for 2 weeks plus le... But I still cant get over this sudden loss in my life. Though Granny is not my natural granny but she dotes on us alot... she gave all she could for this big family of hers..

Every evening as I travel back from work, I cant help but to fight holding back my tears.. :'(

Granny was a very frail looking elderly lady.. in her 70s. She is a saver.. she is very thrifty so that she has more to give to her children, grandchildren and great-grandchild.

That night when Granny's body was taken to the undertaker's place for embalming to prepare for the wake and funeral.. The family was packing her things.. To our amazement (or dismay?), we found lots of $$ (most of them are ang baos given by children, grandchildren and relatives over the years) being stuffed and tucked among her clothings and belongings. All these ang baos are either wrapped with her favourite hankys or those traditional daily calendar :'( My heart ached and teared when I took these things in my hands... I know 大姑 must have left very terrible inside her too.. :'(

During that few days at granny's wake, I thank God for many people coming alongside to encourage and support me and my family.

Top the list is of course, Huifen. How can I thank her enough for what she has done for me and my family. Her visit to granny before she passed away, presence, prayers, cab fare, support, contribution, not forgetting the cheesecake and starbucks coffee. Thanks Huifen. :)

Thanks also to my mentor and overseer in PMC, Brother Chin Nam for his presence, loving words, words of encouragements, sms-es, contributions and prayers. He made a surprise visit on Sunday (funeral day). I was pleasantly surprised and I knew that this brother is truly Godsend and he has been showering me with the Love of Christ and representing the love from the Body of Christ. My family asked me, "your pastor ar?" Without second thoughts.. I answered, "Yah" haha.. Thanks Pastor (soon-to-be) Chin Nam. hehe.. :)

Thanks to many other Christian brothers and sisters: Pastor Aaron, Cheng Guan, Jennee, Gloria, Yoke Lin, Shek Ming, Boon Hooi, Auntie Jenny, my dear brother Wilson, spiritual mom Serene, David, Joan, Daniel Chua, Daniel Quake, Sylvia, Feroz, Guna, Marie, Dajie, and many others (forgive me if I've missed you out.. Just simply too many of you to thank)..

Thanks to the Men's Group for prayers and smses. Thanks to many other brothers and sisters in Christ and friends comforting me through emails.

Thanks to Brother Calvin, Brother Cam Yew and Brother Daryl for caring, visiting and ministering to me with their presence during this difficult period too. Hugs.
Thanks to Cher Whee, my boss for coming by despite the long distance :) It's great encouragement.. Thanks to Sister Shumin for dropping by though it's very late and the next day she has to leave for Penang.

Thanks to many more of you whom I cant finish listing here... God bless all of you!

Lessons learnt for this episode

1. Love your family while you can...

Who can be more important than God and our family?

Spend quality time with family, have meals with them. Show them that you care (genuinely) and love them.. Share Christ's love and the Good News of God's Kingdom with them if they're not yet believers of the Lord Jesus Christ. Miss the chance and it's lost forever... :(

2. Stay close with God and Walk in Freedom

God has done all He could to set us free. We should give ourselves a chance to let God accomplish whatever He has set forth for us and answer to His High Calling to be His child, His vessel of blessings and love unto the nations. Set yourselves free today with the empowerment of the Holy Spirit.

3. Do your part in God's blueprint

God needs partners on earth to accomplish His work. It's Advent and the Church Calendar has reminded us that a year has passed and a New Year has begun.

Set aside some time to ask God what He has installed for you in 2007 and ask for wisdom from Him to have these things accomplished.

Is it about forgiving someone?

Is it about answering God's calling into FULL-TIME ministry as missionary, pastor, preacher or ministry staff?

Is it about finishing reading the Bible?

Is it about going back to Church - a community of believers to support us?

Is it about tithing or giving of our time to Church or other God's ministry?

Is it about baptism?

Is it about marriage?

Is it about attending deliverance and healing ministry where God will meet us so intimately and eagerly wanting to set us free from bondages?

Is it about crucifying our sinful nature, dying to ourselves and taking captive of every thoughts to the obedience of Christ?

Is it about a situation whereby God has called us out from our current profession and seemingly not answering our prayer as to where we'llbe heading to - seemingly dangling there in mid air, not knowing to stay or to move on in life?

Is it about a situation when God has called us for a long time to relocate elsewhere unfamiliar and challenging for His ministry?

Is it "simply" about sharing the good news with someone around us?

Is it just about saying I LOVE YOU to mum or dad or brother or sister or grandparents and giving them a hug or kiss them on their cheeks?

Is it about facing a steeper mountain in life such as moving from normal stream to express stream, or having to face a situation to relocate elsewhere and at the same time being separated from a dear brother or sister in Christ who has by God's grace walk alongside with us for many years?

Is it about facing a situation where our health condition being challenged and we're becoming more and more discouraged and wanting to give up/in to sins for short-term gratification?

Is it about facing a situation where God deliberately (in His greatest Wisdom and foresight of all things set by Him in eternity) not allowing our prayers to be answered so that we might rely more on Him?

Is it about putting behind our past, straining forward towards a goal and running a race that would win us a prize that our Father has called us heavenward in Christ Jesus?

OR is it simply about receiving Jesus as your personal Lord and Saviour?

No matter what it is...

God loves you, God never forsakes nor leaves you.

God will be with you till the end of ages.

The first candle of Hope has been lit, how about yours?

Bless you with the love of Jesus.

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A Blessed Off Day Indeed!

Today, I'm on leave. Received a very sad news but I think God has taught me to be stronger and as I prayed to surrender my ungodly emotions to God and submit to the Lordship of Jesus, things came back to perspective. =) I wish my friend all the best in her new career no matter what. I bless her with the love of Jesus.

I spent the entire afternoon at Vivo City, I nua-ed at Pacific Coffee, listening to the worship songs, had my cafe latte and all time favourite Pacific Coffee Blueberry Cheesecake.. YUMMY! I'm very ministered by Ed Silovoso's book titled "That None Should Perish".. a book on prayer evangelism and city winning for Christ mission!

God has been spoken to me since Sozo Weekend and placed in my heart a few matters this year.. I've not really sought His Heartbeat and Will on these matters but I believe I'll avail myself as His vessel of love and blessings if the Lord so chooses to use me. Meanwhile, like what Brother Peter said, I would walk in my freedom first!

I went to Doulos with Cheng Guan, Daniel Quake, Huifen and Shumin. It was a very blessed session at the "getalife.com" seminar for the Youths.. brought a few bags of books to bless myself and 2 other brothers. I'm also blessed with a book on devotions by Cheng Guan.

This week, several people affirm something that God has placed in my heart.. BUT truly, in God's timinig.. I know when the time is ripe, God will call.. perhaps I'll have to heed His calling then.

Net net, I'm very blessed and glad that God has once again stirred my heart even deeper for His people.

Love You, Father God. Love You, Lord Jesus.

To You be all glory, honour and thanksgiving!

Much worth cheering up for, Daniel

Joyce bought me a smiley for Baptism. Now Smiley resides in my office at Human Resource Office, No. 1 Woodlands Industrial Park D St 1 Singapore 738799... haha...

Don't know why, with Smiley in office, it brightens up my day. Thanks be to God for the gift. hehe.. :) Anyway, I went gym yesterday and I enjoyed myself. I thought I was quite an introvert actually, until Tomas initiated the conversation with me then I opened up myself to chat with him.. hehe.. :)

Tomorrow I will go gym again.. My aim is to lose 5kg in 2 weeks!! :)

Smiley and little Chippy :)

Anyway, today as I looked at the recruitment roadmap for 2007, it's gonna be so exciting and challenging.. But i'm sure as a team, we'll give our best and fight a good fight in 2007!! :) Cant wait for Sini and Shubin to come onboard!! haha.. :)

Also, I was played out by 2 colleagues at work, WHAT A WASTE OF MY TIME!! I planned to go visit Doulos and attend a seminar and I gave up because I wanted to get some work done but those 2 colleagues from that one department really made my blood boils! But I chose to forgive them and bless them with the love of Jesus because it's required of me.. I remembered Brother Peter's "hot potatoes" theory! :) Thanks be to God for the grace to forgive.

I will pray that God will provide a long-term solution to this department's issue. It can be very appalling at times.. Anyway, let's commit it unto the hands of the Lord.

I'm "overseeing" and befriending someone in my company - a new believer.. This is an assignment tasked by an important person in my company.. cant believe that God gives me such as interesting assignment. But I took it graciously because at the end of the day, I'm just His vessel.. eventually, it's the Holy Spirit at work.. :)

I set three expectations for him to internalise and align with himself.. haha.. so fierce wor..

1. God loves him so much that He could not see him continue journeying in life without freedom from bondage of past hurts and wounds.

2. As a brother in Christ, I (phileo) love him

3. He must love himself and believe that he is precious in the eyes of the Lord.

God, grant me strength and Your love to see this brother through!! :)

To You alone be all glory and honour!

Milestone: 12th November 2006

Dear Heavenly Father,

How can I thank You enough for Your great love in my life?

Today is baptism - a public reception of Your grace and love, a new creation in Christ Jesus through Your Son Jesus Christ's suffering and death in the waters of baptism to a reborn life with the Water and the Spirit of God.

It was an exciting milestone of my life. I am looking forward to a renewed life in Christ Jesus. This Baptism marks God's forgiveness and cleansing of sins!

I'm very thankful to many people present:

My Family - Dad, Mum, Grace, Xueliang, Erica and Sean :) It's truly God's grace that my family came.. Although it's a tough decision for my parents to take and something for them to "swallow" but truly I am very grateful that they came to witness my public proclamation of faith in Christ~ :) Thanks dad, mum and sister! Love ya all.. I thank God for your love in my life.

My Brothers - Brother Calvin, Brother James, Brother Daryl, Brother Cam Yew, Brother Reuben, Brother Sean, Brother Gary and his sister. :) Personally I owe many to my brothers who love me so much. I remembered a while ago, I was still acting out in my childish ways but I know they love me and overlook my childish behaviours.

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 1 Corinthians 13:11

Brothers, thank you for loving me.

P/S: the pics taken with my brothers are not ready.. should be ready by tomorrow or Tuesday.. stay tuned for all the other good looking men!!

Of course, my dearest friends - Dajie, Alvin, Daniel, Celia, Sunny, Darren and Shumin are present too! It warms my heart to have a hearing impaired friend with me on my Baptism. He really treats me very well. Thanks brother Darren, hugs.

Many other important people in my life: my church friends -

Serene 姐姐, Wilson 哥哥, little Brian, Sister Daphne and Baby Seth, Margaret, Laraine, Ruby, Auntie Jenny, Chin Nam, Jennee, Joan, my darling Brother Daniel Chua, Daniel Quake , Boon Hooi, Shek Ming, Yoke Lin, Yvette, Justin, John and many others giving us the blessings!

DEW Completed!

My DEW Ministry ended today too! All the occultic, relational, emotional and sexual sins are dealt with and I too know the "tools" to walk in my own freedom. I am personally very indebted to Brother Peter for ministering to me with such love and gentleness. I thank God for Peter and Christina.

I pray that God will continue to use them in this dimension. Peter has also "released" me back to God and Chin Nam will take over from him to disciple and mentor me from this point forward. I will be attending masterlife classes and other bible study classes to build up my spiritual maturity. I will also learn to walk in freedom for a period of time and until such time God wills that I am ready to minister to other people, I will look for Brother Peter to attend DEW School.

It is my desire to walk in freedom with God and minister God's love and healing to the lives of many brokenhearted and wounding people in this world that they may experience the love of God and the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Now.. I shall focus on my own recovery and healing and FREEDOM!! 21 days of devotions starting from tonite! God, helps me!

Wow.. this Day is so awesome and lovely! :)

Bless you all with the Love of God!

Thanks be to God!!

To God be all Glory, Praise and Thanksgiving!

Season of Seeking

Many beautiful things came to an end this week..

1) Pentecost Methodist Church's First Alpha in 2006

We thank God for His amazing love and wonderous gift - we made many friends, we had many good times together with good food and surely we learnt alot... our strengths, our weaknesses.. getting to know more about Christianity and the Love of God!

2) TRAC Intercessor's Training

TRAC Intercessory's Training organised by the Trinity Annual Conference of the Methodist Church in Singapore has come to an end today. It was a beautiful ending of the training but it just means that we've works to do for the Lord.. as Living Hope's PIC Rev Dr Lorna Khoo puts it... zho gang ("working" in Hokkien)...

Yes, I've indicated to Brother Peter - my DEW counselor that I am willing to avail and serve in the Deliverance Exchange and Wholeness (DEW) Ministry as a DEW worker for the Methodist Church. It is my desire to see captivities set free, hearts set free and brokenness being healed with the love of God the Father through the finished work of His Son the Lord Jesus Christ and the ever-powerful empowerment of the Holy Spirit. We're just His instruments.. we just avail ourselves to God to be used by Him as vessels of blessings and love unto others that lives will be transformed and that God may be glorified!

Of course, as TRAC Intercessors, we've gang to zho also.. haha I'll be in the field work to pray for our neighbours and I thank God for the joy to serve Him and His people. Truly, I cant thank Father enough for what He has done in my life.

24 years of brokenheartedness surrendered to Him, renewed and redeemed in Him, enfolded in the Love of Him through His Son, empowered and strengthened by Him through His Holy Spirit. Though we know that Christian life is never a bed of roses and we don't know what the future holds but we know surely that God holds the future!

All I ask Him right now is a closer and ever-more loving intimacy with Him each day of my life until I am called home to be with Him forever. Thanks be to God. :")

All to Jesus I surrendered.

Though many good things come to an end this week, many good things will be coming along the way ahead!

1) Baptism

2) Christmas

3) End of the year Retreat

"Programmes" in the pipeline to be prayed about in 2007

Personal Spiritual Growth

1) Masterlife 1, 2, 3, 4 - my own spiritual growth programme :)

2) Settle down in a care group after Choices :)

3) PMC Men's group :)

4) DEW School (if it's in the centre of God's Will) :)

5) Lay Counselling :)

Service to the Lord

1) Alpha Ministry

2) Hospitality Ministry (?)

3) An overseas mission trip (towards the end of the year)

4) DEW Ministry (?)

5) TRAC Intercessory Corps (Got to be in it!)

6) Share Christ with my family and keep praying for their Salvation!

I submit all these prayer requests and "plans" placed in my heart unto the hands of the Lord, in Jesus' Name. Help me to know Thy Will and move my being into the centre of Your Will. Should any of these not be in Your Will, let not mine but Thine be done!

I ask that the Lord places a cap over these items and as I pray over these items, may He reveal His Will to me and that I will be obedience and submit to His Lordship! I also plead the precious blood of Jesus Christ to cover all these plans and I forbid the thief to come and kill, steal and destroy any of these programmes, in the Name of Jesus.

All these, I ask in Jesus' precious and mighty Name, amen. :)

Baptism - 12 November 2006

November 12, 2006 is an important day for me, Huifen and Cheng Guan. We'll be going through our baptism in the new sanctuary of Pentecost Methodist Church.

I'm praying that my dad will be okay when I inform him that me and huifen going through Baptism on 12 Nov and hope that he and mum will come and give us the blessings.

May the Lord enable and bless this decision of faith we make to Him.

Praise and glory be to God!

GOH Family Annual Conference 2006

Today we, the GOH Family, held our 2nd Annual Conference in 2006 at 大伯's place over Hari Raya Puasa's dinner.. It's a yearly affair as 大伯 and his family are muslims. :)

Agenda for Annual Conference 2006

1. Family Outing in 2007/2008

2. Marriage for Cousin Jeffrey and Caiyun

3. Marriage for Cousin Khalique and his fiancee

4. My marriage?! Thank God it's not discussed!

5. Maybe should discuss Grace's marriage first.. haha.. Mine can wait..

6. Ah Ma's health

Just came back from 大伯's place for Hari Raya gathering.. it was very nice... it has been such a long time since our family get together..

A GRAND TOTAL OF 32 MEMBERS!!

大伯 and family: Aunt Ah Dor (大伯's wife), Khalidah jiejie, her husband and her little baby boy -- zhenli, khaliq Goh, his fiancee who I've not met before, and my cousin Si Man, Atikah)

A total of 8 members in this family.

大姑 and family: Uncle Jack, Jenny, Jeffrey, and future cousin-in-law Caiyun, and my beloved Granny

A total of 6 members in this family.

My own family: Dad, Mum, Grace, Xueliang (future Brother-in-law?? :p) and myself!

A total of 5 members in this family.

三叔 and family: Aunt Xiaomei, Wanling, Jiong Yang, Wanning

A total of 5 members in this family.

二姑 and family: Uncle Richard, Yanjun, Jianjun, and Zhijun

A total of 5 members in this family.

四叔 and family: Aunt Angeline, and baby Jim Jim -- my darling cousin.. :)

A total of 3 members in this family.

Loads of emotions flooding my heart...

Granny's pretty ill lately.. Everyone's worried.. I'm very sad and worried too. I am praying for her. May the Lord's mercy, healing power and saving grace be upon AH MA.. Bless her, my Lord.

Anyway, today's central theme evolves around Cousin Jeffrey's possible marriage to Caiyun?! haha...

Anyway, I thank God that I've 2 elder cousins before me, so I'm not the targetboard yet.. hehe..

Conclusion for today's Annual Conference was:

1) Exploring a possible trip to Shanghai in 2008 with Dad, Mum, Grace, Xueliang, 大姑 and family, 二姑 and family.. tentatively.. I'll be the tour guide!

2) Mr. Khalique Goh's wedding will be held latest in 2008. I might be engaged as the Chinese Emcee for the Chinese Customary Wedding.. hehe..

3) 大伯 and 四叔 will sponsor Mr. Jeffrey Tan's wedding package.. haha it will be held in 2008!! haha Don't know how true.. but guess I might be playing an important role during that period..

4) When is mine?! Maybe also in 2008?! Prophetic?! haha.. I don't know.. as the Lord leads...

5) As Grace and Xueliang not present so they're spared of the agony of being bombarded by the elders of the Clan.. goodness.. they are really very very loud!! haha.. hahaha

6) Something was discussed and we believe we'll love to let Ah Ma see the three male young adults in our families to get married and let her rejoice.. :)

After much 'fruitful' discussion... today's Annual Conference has been adjourned and the next Annual Conference has been scheduled to be during Chinese New Year 2007!

Dear all, see ya then!! Muacks!