Come before GOD's Throne of Grace

Today's worship at Riverlife was seemingly awesome beyond words could describe.. God's presence is so tangible.. When the call of worship was made by Senior Pastor's wife Jenny, Brother Andrew and myself just came in.. quite all over the place and not in sync with the flow of God.

Then, as the worship leader led us through the first two songs, the singing and audio-visual effect, as usual, AWESOME beyond words can describe but I'm still not very in sync with the flow of God until the fourth song: "Reaching for you".

REACHING FOR YOU
I can’t believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
Your lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

PRE-CHORUS:
And I breathe in Your
Breathe of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

CHORUS:
And I stand here before You
In wide-opended wonder
Amazed at the Glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I’m reaching for You

Wow, when i sang the pre-chorus "And I breathe in Your breathe of life that fills my heart, You are my all consuming fire", immediately tears rolled down my cheeks. Honestly, it had been a while since I last experienced the very tangible of God where I could be so in touch with God's holy presence and tears just rolled down so freely...

Hallelujah be to God.

Then one of the elders came up to lead us through Holy Communion. He shared a testimony of how a brother who went through a very serious accident this week and through the physical pain he's experiencing, he came to the realization of God's sacrificial love for us through the Person of His Son the Lord Jesus Christ on the Cross of Calvary. This brother had general anesthesia (GA) and he's still experiencing great pain. Our Lord Jesus Christ declined the general anesthesia in the form of vinegar as he was to be crucified on the Cross with rusty nails piercing through his wrists and legs.

What made this Creator God of heaven and earth come to the world He created to die for His creation? It's the AGAPE love of God that hung Him there.

I knelt down before the throne of God this morning, with the waffle and wine in my hands, I cried to God in awe of His greatness. I knew these few weeks, I struggled big time with internet pornography, SSA fantasies and SSA desires.

God, in His mercy, preserved me and today at the throne of Grace, I confessed my sins and gave up my rights to these things. Not that immediately these things will go away but I knew deep in my spirit, God pardoned my sins when Jesus died for me. Christ died for me while I was still sinner. God paid the ransom so that He could reconcile men back to Him. I also knew that my Father God honoured my gestures and I know what I need to continually do, moving forward.

Honestly, I felt very sad and very sorry for my brothers and sisters who are still in the gay camp propaganding the gay rights in our land. They are missing out so much.. so many wonderful blessings in the house of God. Don't come tell me what rights you want.. What do you get at the end of all these strivings? Freedom? Freedom to what? Are you sure you will be happy? Gay = happy?

Ask yourselves, search your hearts truthfully, can homosexual relationships be sustainable and blissful? You guys who are now in the lifestyle know the answer than any one else who are not. All strivings are in vain.. Heaven and earth (and everything in it) will fade away, including our looks, our careers, our bodies, our successes, but what will never fade away, the LOVE of God and His Truth will endure forever.

My prayer is for every one of you out there to return to the Family of God, come back to the Father through the Son Jesus and you will experience the real LOVE that no other relationship can bring to you. I know this, I experience it for myself. I speak from experience, having left the lifestyle three years ago..

Matter of factly, I'm not ashamed to say that God is not completed with my recovery. I know santification (to be more like Christ) is a journey, it's a journey of character building and development. Since sanctification is a process, it takes time. It's also a journey of experiencing God and His love in different ways and more and more each day.

God's love enables me to give up every rights I think I deserve in exchange for this wonderful Love God gives through my daily relating with Him and through the family of brothers and sisters in His Family.

It's worthy, truly worth it.. I pray that you will come experience it for yourself too. :) Your life can not be the same again when true repetence and santification take place.

Do you know that God still loves you and is still waiting for you to return to Him.

God is Love.